Hati Gelap?

~Assalamualaikum wbt~

~Lama rasanya aku tak update. You're hopeless, Tqah! Kadang-kadang, ada je benda aku taip tapi akhirnya, aku tekan butang X yang berwarna merah tu. Hopefully yang ni bertahan, Insya-Allah.

There's one fine day bila aku sedang masak-masak dengan mak aku. Then, mak aku tetiba buka satu kisah tentang An-Nabi Musa as.

Seorang hamba Allah teringinkan seorang anak lalu dia pun bernazar, "Kalau aku dapat anak, aku akan minum air kencing anjing hitam." Dengan izin-Nya, isterinya hamil dan melahirkan anak.

Lelaki ni pun runsing lar. Dia kenalah tunaikan nazar dia, minum air kencing anjing hitam. Kalau korang lar, korang nak buat ke?

Maybe ada di antara korang akan cakap, "Takpe.. Tu nazar buat benda haram. Boleh je bayar dam or sedekah." Tu untuk umat Rasulullah saw. Lain dengan umat An-Nabi Musa as. Walaupun bernazarkan benda haram, mesti buat gak.

Akhirnya, laki tu pun pergilah jumpa An-Nabi Musa as tuk selesaikan masalahnya. So, An-Nabi Musa as pun kata, lelaki tu tak perlu pun minum air kencing anjing hitam tapi kena minum sesuatu yang lebih hina daripada tu.

An-Nabi Musa as perintahkan lelaki tu tuk tadah air dari bumbung rumah orang yang tak solat dan minumnya. Lelaki tu pun akhirnya jalankan perintah tu.

Nampak, kawan-kawan? Tu baru air dari bumbung rumah orang tak solat. Kalau makan air tangan dorang? Mak aku kata, "Kurang-kurangkanlah makan kat luar. Kita tak tau, orang yang masak tu solat ke tak. Kalau makan masakan dorang, hati kita boleh jadi gelap."

Cukupkah solat kita? Adakah disebabkan kita, hati orang yang kita sayang akan menjadi gelap? Mahukah kita menjadi yang lebih hina daripada air kencing air hitam? Solat itu wajib. And it should be something 'normal' for a Muslim to perform it. Kalau tak jalankan benda wajib? Well, I leave that question for you to answer. Astaudi'ukumullah. Wassalam~

Negara Islam?

~Assalamualaikum wbt~

~My sister urged my dad to buy the movie 'Istanbul Aku Datang' from the Astro First. She has been talking about it since she watched it with her friend in the cinema. So, I decided to watch the movie with her.

It was ok. I don't know. I don't really watch teenage love movies. I just love the scenery. Come on! We're talking about Istanbul here, the beautiful country! And most of all, Beto Kusyairy is the hero. He's very casual and he didn't say each word from the script. It's not that I'm in love with him. No.. No.. No.. I just love his acting.

Unfortunately, I'm a little bit disappointed with some scenes in the movie. Well, maybe for some teenagers would say it's cute and romantic and blah.. blah..blah.. Yeah, I don't really agree when Lisa said (in the movie), she didn't mind if people talk if she stayed in a house with 3guys as long as she knows what is right or wrong. Well, that's not a good idea at all. Dangerous!!

But most of all, I was quite surprised when Tomok said (in the movie), "Ni kan negara Islam.." when he pushed Lisa for hugging him. Woo... That's quite interesting.

We know that Istanbul is an Islamic country. But the thing is.....how about Malaysia? So, in Istanbul, we can't hug ( I mean if they're not blood-related ). But in Malaysia, we can? We can't do it in Instanbul because it's an Islamic country. So, Malaysia is not an Islamic country?

I'm not mad at Tomok for saying it but just disappointed with the movie. Okay.. I know some people might include some political issues into this matter. Seriously, I don't want to talk about that. Why?

People keep on accusing others, saying it's their fault. Malaysia is an Islamic country but we act as if it is not. So, I don't think it's totally the government's fault, though they also need to play their role. (not saying that I'm anti-government)

What I really think is that we're the one who should be blamed. Yes, you!! The Malaysians! It is confirmed that the main religion in this country is Islam. But then, do we act as a real Muslim? Or is it because our surroundings act as if we're not, so we don't say this is an Islamic country? (Oh man! I'm starting to talk nonsense)

I don't really know what I want to say. But I guess, I can't deny that many people think what Tomok (in the movie) thinks about Malaysia. We can't do sins in an Islamic country but we can do it in Malaysia? Man! That sickens me! As if Allah's only can see you in that place but not in Malaysia. Astaghfirullah Al Azim.

Don't be too narrow-minded, people! And don't blame others! Blame yourselves for them to think that way. Because we don't really applied Islam in ourselves. I blame myself too. I'm a fool! I guess if one day Israel do come to Malaysia and attack us, we're totally gonna lose. I mean it!

So, how to avoid people from being narrow-minded? I guess, we need to start by ourselves. I don't believe that this kind of things would change in a blink of an eye. It takes time. So, start change our attitude. Applied ourselves in ourselves. Remember. Allah can see you everywhere. He do not sleep. He watch you. And He sent the angels 'Raqib and Atid' to write your 'amal. Have you forgotten?

And when you say, "Don't worry. No ones looking.", remember one thing. Allah will show it to everyone during the judgment day. I guess some of you forgot about it. I don't mean to scare you but I just don't want you to be lost again. ^^ Astaudi'ukumullah. Sorry for any error in my grammar (still learning). Wassalam~

Happy Birthday, Atiqah

~Assalamualaikum wbt~

~It's already 12.10am, 4 December 2012 while my birthday supposedly to be on 2nd of December 2012. I don't really like birthday party and celebration since I'm a little bit embarassed while people look at me and sing 'Happy Birthday' song. But I do love when people celebrate my birthday. It shows people's appreciation to us. I don't know. That's my opinion.

The first person who wished was my best friend. "Cakap je apa kau nak, nanti aku belikan," that's what my friend said. "Sugar glider please!" I love sugar glider though I've never adopt one. My family brought me to Jusco and have lunch in Johnny's. (I love this place though we rarely come here) They even bought me some presents. They even bought a cake! (Birthday girl or not, I still have to do chores on that day)

But on the stroke of midnight (2/12/12), I was thinking, what did I do during all these 19years? (OMA! I'm 19!) Have I been a good daughter? (Nope) Have I been a good slave? (Total no)

I watched Hanakazari no Kimitachi E and when I downloaded the song from the movie, suddenly I remember the drama, 'One Litre of Tears'. There's a beautiful song entitled, 'Only Human' that even by hearing it, we can feel the emotions.

It was then, I realized, I've wasted for 19years doing useless things. What if I lived in a world of Aya's? Who Aya? Aya is the girl in the drama, 'One Litre of Tears' who had suffer a disease called 'Spinocerebellar Degenaration' when she was 15years old. It's kind of you can't control your body and you'll lose the energy to control it over time. TRUE STORY!

She knew that she's going to die. Even if she's not, she felt that she's useless regardless of her uncotrolled body. Seriously, I cried. What if one day, I found out that I'm going to die very soon? What if I'm unable to do anything for the world? Or worst, being a burden to the surroundings?

I might regret. For 19years, I didn't do what I need to. I might as well say, "How much I have wasted for all this time." Yes! I probably say that. Same as the time when I've wasted 17years for being 'Jahil'. Time will not stop. It keeps moving on. Even the London's Big Ben Clock Tower stopped, time will still ticking.

People wish 'Happy Birthday'. They give presents. They celebrate. They ask forgiveness if they forget to wish your birthday. Everyone seems happy. I admit, I felt the same. However, I know, I'm closer to death. But sometimes, I forgot. How foolish I am!

We keep on looking at the past but it's already gone and we can't reach it. We keep deciding our future though we don't know what's coming ahead us. So what should we do, then? "People shouldn't dwell on the past. It's enough to try your best for all that you're doing now." -Aya-

Focus on what you're doing right now. You live in this time. This second. So, would you like to let it go waste? Well, I don't (though I always did it). Because if you keep on delay everything, you don't know if it really does happen in the future. For example, right now it's 12.44am. Let's say, we're going to ask your mom's forgiveness at 12.50am. But what if at 12.45am, you die. We don't know our future.

Now, I'm 19. When I was 18, I want to have a research on the Holy Qur'an. Unfortunately, I kept on delaying it and it's already a year now. Oh man! Tqah, you're such a fool! So, if I delay it again, I'm sure I'll delayed it until I'm 20! (ketuk kepala sendiri)

But the most important thing is what have I really done towards Allah and my parents? I don't really get excited during my birthday. To me, it's a great burden. For it is as if a reminder that I don't really do good towards them in each year. Last month, my parents asked me, what I want for a present? No, I don't want a thing. Because I think, almost everyday, my parents will give us something. Even food that they cook can be consider as a gift. Allah have give me everything I need. And He still want me to pray and ask more from Him. (I use plural for Allah since He have 99characteristics)

So, what did I do for them? So, yeah. I sometimes hate my own birthday since it always make me realise I've a wasted a year. I don't say we shouldn't be celebrating our own birthday. Come on. Even my friends and I made birthday pranks. But at the same time, we should be grateful that Allah still give you a life after each year. Don't let it go waste. Thank your parents. I don't really know why the birthday girl/boy should be given the presents. Seriously, I don't know though I love presents. But, for me, it's more reasonable if the birthday girl/boy gives presents to people. As an appreciation. As being grateful. What do you think?

I don't know what I've just typed. Well, it's been a while since I blogged. (I'm busy. Sorry) So yeah. I guess, I'll be doing chores again tomorrow. But I guess I'll add up something. (Please go and exercise, Tqah!) Well, time is ticking and you can't let it go waste! Oh, I recommend all of you to watch One Litre of Tears. Seriously! Watch it! You'll love it. Astaudi'ukumullah. Wassalam~